darken sight

photo taken by: me

day's just seem to be more grey and dark day by day....

try-n to break through the problems ahead, but when i'm face to face with them, it's not just a matter of go against it, it's also if you can break them down.

one hammer smash wont work, then you go for a second, when that doesn't work you try for a thrid, but by the time you do you'r third, you feel so tired and annoyed. and right now i want to give up once agian... i can't seem to be capable for helping myself get back up and into the game, and if i can't, neither can anyone.

so i guess the emo sad littel moonchild girl is back agian, aiya.... vat can i dooooooooo?



tonight and wonderland (janice)

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i'm all of what u have just mentioned (todays not my day)

yea, like no kidding.... i have changed in a bad way, more negative, cry a lot, act stupid, careless....

my mothers like your so stupid and unconsidered, yea okay like if i did'n no that.... and then she says i am careless and selfish, yes that too i may be selfish but not as much as the ppl i'm around with. and yes i was careless the day i was born.

yes just when i use to think that dreaming about things that might not happen is stupid, i am wrong, i have found out the more you dream about it and hope for it, it will sure come to you... keep on dreaming little girl.

keep it up and stay happy

YOUR SMILE

Show me your smile
Show me real love
Hikari demo kage demo nai
Show me your smile
Show me real love
Mirai ja nai kako demo nai

Kuroi sora kodoku na tsukiakari
Mou mayowanai
Sagashite ita sekai mitsuketa kara

You are looking the wrong way
You feel that you are not enough
Sabishii me de nani wo motomete
You can find your true self
It can't wait to come to life
Let go the pressure
Imi ga nai

This is the singer i love the most, signs any kind of rock, a lot of English lyrics, and there not always about love, which i love

out of jail

finely i am out of that stupid dinner with a bunch of stupid ppl... more like my enemies, bullies and aunties that think they're so smart... what i have to suffer this like2-3 times a year. ); forced to go... this is like the last time i will go, even though there are 2 more stupid dinners with them thus year... y would i even eat dinner with a bun ch of ppl that bully me... so painful, i don't even speak when i go there, every time i go there i don't even feel like eating. this time once i walked into the house my legs went freezing cooled then it was shaking );..... plz save me
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if any one has any great bands to introduce to me plz do, i need a new band to replace superchick, cuz I'm not aloud to listen to them anymore....

where can you find.....

so today while i was standing at the parking lot, waiting for pick up, i saw 2 couples, the guy wanting to break up with the girl. i see them everyday, so sweet and cute together, but when i was standing there, i felt the pain of the girl, she was grabbing on the guys arm really hard but every time the guy would pushed it away. from what i herd the guy must have misunderstood, or was just not trusting the girl, only becuz she was covering up something. so is this one of the big and easy ways a guy would try to get rid of a girl, they do it all the time when maybe they get annoyed with the girl or they see another one. this may not be the case but thats how i see it. she already told him she did not cover up but the guy would not listen..... and i think, maybe there really is no true love in this world, and love being one of the great things god has given us. not only that, but u don't find genuine affection through anyone, all heartless and cold blooded to other ppl, besides the one they love and things they enjoy. and then after they both run off, i see a double date.... weird......

2 stories, 2 sides to it (insulant )

i herd 2 stories this week almost about the same things, they have different sides to it. they were both about insulant....
 one i herd today was a guy that had diabetes(i think) and he will have to inject insulant as medication. i felt bad knowing that he can't eat as normal as the rest of us and that he would have bruises from having 8 injections a day ): well he had a positive view to this, he said that " i ate healthy foods like whole grain breads, and also it made the ppl around him being aware of what they eat too" that was good for me to learn from him...

the second one is my friends cute little baby "Spencer(guinea pig)"  he has a common disease that most guinea pigs will get, a lack of vitemine "C" which was almost impossible, and it had to do the same thing too take medication and coast $500 for every thing. well as i saw it take it's med, i felt bad for the little guy, it shook it's head around not wanting to take it...... after that we gave him sweet orange and he was eating really really fast nibbling on it, and when my friend pulled it away from him, he still garbed on to the orange not wanting to let go.(hope it get well soon) now all i think that effects him to be like that is the area he is in, the whole family is just in a bad situation right now and having one family member begging to emotional to things can be big effect. today once again i saw her cry, i felt so sad for her, but good for her still being able to deal with all the problems she is facing.
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this week I've been so happy, i was trying to think different, now even though i'm not aloud to listen to superchicks any more, i was still able to go through with no problem, now all i have to do is keep this up. one song says "happiness is free if u want it to be" and all i have to do is think right, not just try to be positive but have everything go well..... AND BEING HAPPY makes my life so joyful and everything i do i had a bit more energy, even though i half fainted today :P