music to death

i just found out one of the things that can bring a deeper isolation is music. not just listen to music in general, but the type and stuffs, hard metal rock and all that kinda stuffs bring to isolation and selfishness, cuz your so competent with yourself. and guess what i love love love my music on full blast, not sure why just do, that when i feel invisible, i can walk by a hall way and feel no one and no one can see me. and just when i thought i liked rock becuz of other influences, it was just myself all along. it's such a habit listening to songs all the time, do it everywhere anytime, just when i have the time i bring it out. know only if i can share it with my friends, but no... they don't like the songs i like, and funny i listen to a wide variates of songs, in language and genera. how can someone not find one song they like from my song list... ): oh well I'll get to practise some selfishness and listen to it myself. i might just have a feeling soon enough i will be soo self fish and alone. but that doesn't matter, i mean I've been a bad bad girl, well I've always been. very rebellious.

usless

i was going to type out, what i wanted to say for the day, but somehow i didn't felt like it after logging on...weird
well life to me is so freakin annoying, i just want to get it over with live it and die. end of story...


by the way if anyone plays gaia this would be my dream avi, but i am far, away from this one, don't have enough gold..... sigh

24hours

photo taken by: me

god being the only one eyes wide and mind oped 24hours.

the only one that choose to listen to you carefully, the only one that want to listen to the deepest parts of your soul... sadly u can't see him only he can...

only if in realy human forme someone would gadly do the same thing... ):

darken sight

photo taken by: me

day's just seem to be more grey and dark day by day....

try-n to break through the problems ahead, but when i'm face to face with them, it's not just a matter of go against it, it's also if you can break them down.

one hammer smash wont work, then you go for a second, when that doesn't work you try for a thrid, but by the time you do you'r third, you feel so tired and annoyed. and right now i want to give up once agian... i can't seem to be capable for helping myself get back up and into the game, and if i can't, neither can anyone.

so i guess the emo sad littel moonchild girl is back agian, aiya.... vat can i dooooooooo?